I sometimes feel like I have a lot to say, but I know it's not usually anything of value. I've been debating doing an entry on the change in morals and values in just my short 35 years of life, but I know that some would be offended and I'm not always the softest person when it comes to dealing with differing opinions. My wife (poor thing) can tell you about that. But I feel like writing something. So here goes...
First, remember that I added myself to this blog for the attempt at adding spiritual topics. So, when you see that I've written an entry, feel free to skip it if that's not something that interests you. Or, if you think me a hypocrite, based on something you've observed in my life that doesn't seem to fall into what I write, realize I already know and that's why I am so glad God saves by grace not merit.
Now, here comes my way of starting a spiritual topic with something that doesn't really sound too spiritual. I love Lady Gaga. Honestly, I find her to be a very talented musician. She does things that can not be considered boring or just like every other artist. She has an ability to go places with her music, harmonies, and sound that others wish they could reach. And, unlike many of the artists today, she is actually musically talented. Now, I didn't include the video to the song I'm going to refer to below, because she does do things that are provocative and inappropriate to my topic, but she is good at her job.
Her newest album, "Born This Way", was recently described to me as "very Catholic". And, while I've never really been to a Catholic church or Catholic mass or Catholic friend's house, I can see how someone not necessarily involved in a "Christian religion" could believe this, with some of the songs and lyrics on the album. Which brings me to my main point. There is a song on the album called Judas, as in the guy who betrayed Christ. Some of the official words of the song are:
I'm in love with Judas.
When he calls to me I am ready
I'll wash his feet with my hair if he needs
Forgive him when his tongue lies through his brain
Even after three times he betrays me
I'm just a holy fool oh baby it's so cruel but I'm still in love with Judas baby
Jesus is my virtue and Judas is the demon I cling to
Besides the artistic license taken with regards to biblical accuracy (woman who washed Jesus feet with her hair, Peter was the one who denied knowing Jesus three times, etc.), I actually choose to look at this as a pretty good understanding of the depravity that we "cling to". The betrayal of Jesus was the ultimate sin, since it was the complete rejection of Christ (the only sin that is not forgiven, since it is the rejection of the only way to salvation). But we all do it every day. We all choose self gain over the glory of God. I would attempt to roughly translate her words as:
I'm in love with myself
When I want something I go after it
I'll do anything for self gratification
Excuse myself for what I do
Deny the prompting of the Holy Spirit
I know what I do is wrong, but I do it anyway because I seek self gratification
Jesus is virtue but I choose the desire I have to satisfy myself
Now, she may not be thinking of it like me. Perhaps she loves doing what is wrong. She may find Judas so attractive that she doesn't want to believe he is wrong, but I choose to think of it as a cry against what she knows to be wrong and lacks the strength to deny herself of. In another part of the song she says, "I'll bring him down, bring him down, down." What happens is, we think we CAN fight and defeat our sinful desires on our own. But it's not possible. Sin, the desire for self gratification and self glorification, is so strong and so deeply rooted as part of our nature, that we can ONLY cry out for Jesus. Sin is over powering without the strength granted us from God, through the Holy Spirit. And only by the blood of Christ are we able to be freed of the sin we have, do, and will commit.
Finally, I know that I may be stretching it a bit with my translation of this song and its meaning, but I think apart from God, all creatures are seeking the completeness that does only come from fulfilling the purpose for our creation, which is to say, we were created to glorifying God and therefore, will only find true joy and wholeness in doing that. Although the desire to gratify and satisfy our self seems most important, by seeking instead, to glorify God first, total joy and wholeness will be a result that voids our need for self gratification.
And now I've written it to go out tomorrow and not live it. If only God came now to take me home with Him, so that I would no longer betray him daily with my life. Damn you Judas.