Love. This is my nemesis. I don't love. I can't love. It is impossible for me to love. People drive me crazy. I see through people's lies. I see through there problems to the root of what is really going on. I'm so annoyed and frustrated with the decisions they make. I can not be loving.
BUT WHO THE HECK DO I THINK I AM??????????? The Creator of the universe, God, simply wants us to live lives that glorify Him. And we don't. We sin and sin and sin and lie and create problems and make horrible decisions. And God, does he hate us? NO! He loves us to the point of sacrificing His Son for us, to save us from ourselves. That is grace. That's love. "For God so loved the world, that He have His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16.
Romans 9 starts with Paul telling us he is speaking the truth when he says he has "great sorrow and unceasing anguish in (his) heart." Paul says he would be cut off from Christ for the sake of his brothers and kinsmen. He's referring to the unbelieving Jews. Paul had love enough for his fellow Jews that he was willing to be cut off from Christ (being sent to Hell) on their behalf so they would believe know Jesus was the Messiah. He loved to the point of complete sacrifice of his own eternal life.
I am a reach. I am a worthless being, not fit for the kingdom of God, not fit to be called a child of God. I deserve Hell and damnation for eternity. The desires of my flesh control and rule me. The desire of my heart is overruled by the lust of the flesh. Lord take control of my life. Make the desires of my heart the controlling force in my life, as long as my heart is in line with your will.
Praise God for His Love.